The Woman Behind the Blog

I am a recent stay at home mom and student. I previously worked at a childcare center where I  tended to the sweet, sometimes rotten (but I still love them) babies. Few things are as rewarding as playing a positive role in the first year of a child's life.  I recently chose to quit my job to stay at home with my children. As much as I loved my job, I felt I was missing out on watching my own children grow. 


I also attend a local college while I finish up my degree in Early Childhood Education. I have really learned a lot that will guide me through life professionally as well as at home with my own children. This is where I fight the urge to break off, hop on my soap box, and rant on about the poor parenting I have been witness to throughout society over the years and the importance of quality time with your children.


I grew up in the city and never imagined not being able to step out of my back door and be in a Walmart parking lot. Although the twenty minute drive to get there now really isn't that bad, there were many long nights of crying before I got used to what I still consider small town country life. Remind you...I do exaggerate but, it really is a small town and I drive by at least six horse farms every day as I travel to work and, it is only five minutes to that city I grew up in and thirty minutes to the house I was raised at. It's so hard to believe that so much farm land was surrounding me that whole time I was growing up. I could never even have pointed in the direction this town was then because I had never even heard of it.


I don't have an elaborate story to tell you about my life and I am still trying to find the right place for me but, I am loving the {journey} as I go.


I was previously married to an abusive man who is also the biological father to my three daughters. A college grad with a promising future and a few bad life choices that changed it all. Drugs can truly undo a person and destroy relationships. Sadly, the Lord has not yet healed my heart enough to forgive him for all the physical and mental pain he caused my girls and me and, until he makes peace with himself and commits himself to Jesus Christ, it is best that he and our girls live a life apart from one another. I honestly hope for the sake of my girls that the Lord leads him in the right direction and he creates a better life for himself one day.


I am thankful that I have been given a second chance at love and have never been more happy in the relationship I now have with my Marine. He is the reason I am able to smile these days and has brought my life back from a dark place. And, because of him, I have my three boys; The oldest two, step sons but no less loved and he has become a father to my girls.


Three boys, three girls. All together they are my six cherries.


My life is not perfect but my life is certainly sweeter than cupcakes...and I am enjoying it with...


Six Cherries on Top! 

Edited to Add:  

Unfortunately, my girls will never get the chance to completely know their father, because our Lord took his life tragically in April 2010.  Hopefully, in his last hours of his journey here on earth, he was able to make peace with the Lord. As much anger as I had for this man, I feel saddened that he was not able to battle and overcome his additions.


Although I will never forget the pain he caused me, I have deep sympathy for his family. His passing is truly a sad story, that I will never forget, and may someday be able to share with others.  I know that he is in a better place now and that the hurt, pain, and struggles that he faced are now behind him and he can rest easily.  May the Lord take him in his arms and forgive him for all of his faults.